Saturday, June 5, 2010

Brain Fog

OF ALL THE THINGS I'VE EVER LOST, I MISS MY MIND THE MOST!
~Author Unknown

Great quote, isn't it? I used to think so too ~ until it became a reality. I swear, I'm 50 and losing it.

The latest joke around the house when we're looking for something is, "Hey, did ya check the fridge?" Funny, very funny. And when I space out on something I should definitely know, Jeff will say, "It's okay, honey. You're still very, very cute."

I don't want to be cute ~ I want my mind back. I used to juggle all kinds of details and pull them out exactly when I needed to. I was a school principal for God's sake! And now? I'm a flippin' mush-brain.

Last weekend was the clincher. It was our anniversary, and we were meeting friends for dinner at at a restaurant. Just about ready, the phone rang.

"Patricia, did you forget?"

Pause. Huge pause. Oh...My..God! A few days ago this lovely couple had invited us to dinner. I'd completely spaced it out, not even telling Jeff. I was horrified. Thoroughly embarassed. And scared as hell. We went, and thankfully they were still gracious to entertain us. And our other friends? I can only say how grateful I am they know me well enough to forgive, too. Yikes.

So, is this a menopause thing? It's the only one that seems to be really hitting me so far. But if not, what else could it be? I don't even want to go there. For now I'm taking some natural supplement called Huperzine-A that was featured on a morning show. I'll let you know if it works.

But meanwhile, misery loves company. Please, oh, please tell me this is normal!

2 comments:

  1. I would prefer brain to cute anyday!!!
    I go through periods when I forget little stuff, but nothing as big as yours-yet.. I walk to one end of the house and stand there wondering what i was planning on doing! It is frustrating and I attribute it to menopause.
    If it starts happening more frequently I'd start keeping little notes about when it happens, and what else is going on.. in case you need to reference it.
    I am finding so many little lovely things that happen with this period of life that no one shared with me! Ugh.... I'm a few months shy of 56 and as of July 3 will have gone one full year w/o a period.. which is meant to signal that I'm "there" or "here" or whatever! And, while I'm having a new round of hot flashes now and dreading them in the summer heat of Virginia, I'm fine with menopause and look forward to the total release of worry about pregnancy!

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  2. Oh, that sounds so encouraging! I'm hoping, of course, to be as fine with menopause as you. A whole year without a period would be something huge to celebrate - yahoo! And so would having this come on without hitting too hard. I'm praying. Your idea about keeping notes is great-thanks! I've done that with the period changes, but hadn't written this craziness down. I'll do it right now before I forget...

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